Defying Gravity

October 13. 2006

2006-10-12T23:04:00.000-07:00

Guess who?

And she's in London.
For some reason, she looks very different to me in this picture...

Elphie

October 9, 2006

2006-10-08T22:17:00.000-07:00

Does anyone else think that the kid who plays young Eisenheim in The Illusionist looks like Frodo? That totally distracted me during the whole first half of the movie...

September 22, 2006

2006-09-22T20:46:00.000-07:00

I...am insanely exhausted.

I am reading Mere Discipleship by Lee Camp, and it is dragging. As I *sadly* sit in my room at 10:41 on a Friday night, I wonder if perhaps going to Wal-Mart would make me less pathetic. Or perhaps not. Seriously though, tonight was all right, as far as Friday nights go. I spent an hour or so studying under one of the trees on campus, and it was nice, I got to watch the sun go down and listen to music for awhile. My stuff from Amazon came in today, but I didn't know about it until after the mail center closed, so I have to wait until Monday to get my stuff....sigh.

So...it's been a dull week. Everyone is off to see their families, so Miss Not-From-This-State is going to stay here and find something to do. Lol.

Boring entry...oh well.

Quote for today: "What's that thing with all the candles?"
"...that would be a menorah..."
"Oh YEAH!"

Elphie

September 17, 2006

2006-09-17T18:54:00.000-07:00

I will freely admit two things right now.

1) I love tap. As in, I love to tap until my feet are so sore I can't move them. I love the sounds, I love how you can move your feet and look like you are walking, and yet four different sounds materialize. I love how you can tap to any kind of music, and how it can bring people together, this love of dance. I love how fantastically simple, and yet remarkably complex it is. And yet, I also love it because it is one of the few things that comes easily to me. So yes. I love tap.

2) I am in love with Johnny Depp.

Thank you, ladies and gentlemen, and goodnight.

Quote for today: "Do you have anything you want to say, Jennifer?"
"I like cheese..."

Elphie

September 6, 2006

2006-09-06T17:33:00.000-07:00

You know, we live in a superficial world.
Now, before you write me off as supremely retarded, let me explain. I was watching a show today about these families with girls who have a skin disorder that's called Harlequin. These girls have to wake up at 4:30 every morning, and scrape off two layers of skin because otherwise, it will kill them. Overnight, these girls grow what, for a normal person, would be 2 weeks growth of skin. After these baths-which resemble the removal of severely sunburned skin, these girls put cream all over their skin-a ritual which is repeated four to five times a DAY. Beyond this, their mother must wash their clothes and sheets every day, care for them, clean the house-be a normal mother. One of the girls is seventeen, and she is blind in one eye, and only has 10% vision in the other eye, while her younger sister has cerebral palsey.

That was a summary, but here is my point.

We obsess over the stupidest things-girls, we obsess over our weight, our hair, boys WHATEVER!!! How stuck up, how stupid is it that I am annoyed about my looks, my perfectly normal looks, my single status, whatever-when there are girls out there who will never look normal, who will never live normally, and yet they LIVE life. I don't understand why this would happen-I mean, this made me question God, HOW could something like this be allowed to happen?!

I mean, this is what happens when evil entered the world....it's just, it's sad.

And yet we as people still OBSESS over stupid things!!!! STUPID things! It's so dumb, the things we think about-how we let our day be ruined by a bad hair day or a homework assignment. In short, this was eye-opening. How dare I have the audacity to obsess over myself when there are people with true hardships out there who can live HAPPY LIVES?!?!

People, I wish you could have seen this. It's on TLC around 6-7 o' clock at night, and it's called "My Skin Could Kill Me."

Get a new perspective. We don't know how good we have things. And it could be gone tomorrow. Live life. LIVE IT.

Quote for today: "Carpe Diem. Seize the day."

Elphie

September 2, 2006

2006-09-02T18:46:00.000-07:00

So. College life is exciting. I have a bunch of new theatre friends, and we are pretty much having a blast down here. I served the dinner theatre last night, which, by the way, is an amazing show-Brighton Beach Memoirs, if you ever get a chance to see it. That was fun, I got to meet new people. I really enjoy life here at college, and my roommate is very sweet. Me and this other theatre girl tried out for Freshman Follies yesterday, which is like a freshman talent show, and we used "What Is This Feeling" from Wicked, and it was a BLAST. This other theatre girl...we'll call her...Mimi, is one of the friendliest people I know-she's NOTHING like Mimi from RENT, but she likes RENT so I call her Mimi. But yeah, my professors are amazing and the people here are so polite. Truth be told, there's nowhere else I'd rather go for college. And I'm loving every minute of it.

Quote for today: "Dance like no one is watching, love like you've never been hurt, sing like nobody's listening, live like it's Heaven on Earth."

Elphie

August 31, 2006

2006-08-31T14:13:00.000-07:00

If you ever get bored and want to see some fun stuff on Facebook, here are the badges...

Quote for today: "Savvy."

Elphie

August 21, 2006

2006-08-20T23:19:00.000-07:00

Mom, Dad, don't leave!!!
I miss you!!
I'm scared...

...and I feel alone...

I want to cry....

omg....I am so scared....
I hate seeing my Daddy fragile like that.
I just wanna go home....

Elphie

August 16, 2006

2006-08-16T19:29:00.000-07:00

So.

College.

College is going to be psycho. Insane. As in, I'm sitting here with my cat wondering how on Earth I am going to live without him. I couldn't stay at church tonight...it drove me insane, no one was there...no ex-seniors, anyway.

BUT.

I DID get to talk to somebody who is pretty freaking awesome.
And I love her a lot.
And I sang TMOLM all the way home.
Because somehow, it made me feel a little better.

By the way.
I dyed my hair.
I have joined the ranks of the Auburn-Haired people.
Yep.
Made me pretty happy.

Elphie

July 22, 2006

2006-07-22T15:06:00.000-07:00

For those of you who read this and might worry-I am still alive. Breathe.

Although now I think I should be very adequate at portraying depression onstage...now that I've experienced it firsthand.

Let me say this:

I am emotional. I am intensely emotional. I get embarassed easily. I cry easier than I'll admit, and I can refuse to cry through a sheer effort of will. But lately, the slightest thing can send me spiraling downward, until I'm drowning in a sea of self-pity and sorrow.

I'm so ridiculous!
Lol.

Enough. I am getting depressed again, just writing this.

Quote for today: "In the evening, I've got roam, can't sleep in the city of neon and chrome..."

Elphie

July 21, 2006

2006-07-21T21:04:00.000-07:00

I am...an extremely emotional person.

It's really rather frustrating.

For almost seventeen years, I have managed to efficiently control my emotions. I am capable of laughing, smiling, and interacting with people on a regular basis...and yet, I can be dying on the inside. I have been more upset, depressed, and furiously angry than anyone knows, and I have covered it reasonably well with only minor upsets. Unfortunately...and at the same time, fortunately...I have been taught how to share these emotions. Also...and I'm not sure which it is...I have learned how to actually care about what happens to other people. I have managed to keep my chin up for so long because I've learned how to stop caring for other people. And now...now I care again. And that's extremely frustrating...because I cannot bottle my emotions as securely as I used to. Sigh...

The thing is...I don't mind caring, not really. I just hate that my emotions are so darned strong. It's like a tidal wave of feeling that I can't escape...always pushing at the back of my mind until I am overcome...either by sadness, or anger...or fear. And so often I wish...well, that I didn't care so terribly much...or perhaps that I didn't care at all. It would not be such a terrible thing...to cut oneself off from feeling...knowing how to feel and yet avoiding those inconvenient emotions that make one suffer. Surely it would be pleasanter than worrying...and sadness...such troublesome things that plague my everyday living. And I know who will think themselves responsible...but they are wrong...although they will never believe that.

Oh...bugger.

I'm not good at expressing these emotions. They're rather complex. But then again...what's one more musing of an angsty little person? Not much, I'll warrant you that.

Quote for today: "I wanna commit a crime...wanna be the cause of a fight..."

Elphie

July 18, 2006

2006-07-18T14:45:00.000-07:00

So.

Let me just say.

I love Pirates of the Caribbean. I also love Pride and Prejudice. Seeing Keira Knightley opposite the guy who plays Collins...again...is really funny. I confess, it is pretty impossible to view Collins, alias, Cutler Beckett, as a seriously bad guy when you recall him standing on the carpet in front of Lady Catherine looking like a frog that desperately needs to pee. Secondly, seeing Keira aim a pistol between his eyes was very satisfying.

That aside, working retail is a rewarding job. I have some of the most amazing work stories ever. They are so ridiculously funny, and some of them are just downright shockers. But I love it just the same.

Anyway, right now I am going to deep clean the various messes I have scattered throughout the house, so I will post for you cool cats later.

Elphie

July 7, 2006

2006-07-07T22:04:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT I SAW!!!!
GLINDA BOUGHT ME TICKETS!!!
IT WAS....MEMORABLE!!!
AND WRONG!
AND RIGHT!
ON SO MANY LEVELS...

Elphie (Elizabeth Swann...if you please...)

July 1, 2006

2006-07-01T11:30:00.000-07:00

My birthday is over.
That is sad.

I wish it could be my birthday every day.
That would make me quite happy. Unfortunately, such an event is impossible, unless I were, to quote a novel, to "bear [myself] again and again like a pfenix(sp)" (yes, the author spelled pheonix their own way)

Which would suck. A lot.

Umm. So I got a digital camera for my birthday, rock on. And I got a memory card, and sheets for my dorm, and a purse and matching shoes. I treated myself to a pair of kitten-heeled flip flops, cork with white cloth for the flip-floppy part, and I got some money from one of my mom's close friends....otherwise known as Mrs. Smiley-Face. (in such a way shall I refer to her ever after) ..or as The Bear Lady. I like that better. Mrs. Smiley-Face is now The Bear Lady.

I digress.

My birthday was fun. I saw the local baseball team play. They won. It was exciting. I took pictures. My dear Glinda has renounced them for life, but I am sure she will come around to loving them again, despite recent events.

I still cannot, for the life of me, understand why we pay people millions of dollars to whack a ball with a stick. It's a GAME. I'm good at MarioParty 7...can I have a million dollars, please?

No?

IMAGINE THAT.

*sniffs*

I have work ranting, but for those of you few who are cool enough to know where it is, there lies my work blog. So...it is a blog that nobody knows about at a website who's origin is unknown, and cannot be found-except by those who already know where it is.

HA.

I GET TO SEE PIRATES IN SIX FREAKING DAYS!!!!

Oh, and Galadriel, if you still drop by sometime, I miss you, and LYLAS in a big way. I miss talking to you. I'm collecting random, slightly profound questions for the next time we get to chat.

I'm gonna go work now.

Random Thought for today: Go buy lemon, grape, and lime Jello...mix it up a bit...go WILD.

Quote for today: "I'm a mushroom." (don't ask...it's a long comic...)

Elphie

June 27, 2006

2006-06-27T21:26:00.000-07:00

TOMORROW'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!

But Glinda gave me presents today, because she's leaving tomorrow.

She rocks my socks off. She got me a Pirates of the Caribbean poster, AND a Captain Jack Sparrow shirt, AND a pink box...with pink wrapping paper. And she got me another really cool gift that she will know what I'm talking about. And I love it. A lot.

I realized this week that college is going to be painfully hard. And I wonder how I'm going to survive. Oh, I will...but I keep seeing the dorms, and seeing people, and wondering what I'm going to do...a million miles away from everyone I love....

....

People have this misconstrued perception that I (a) don't know how much they love me, and (b) am incapable of loving them that much.

These people are wrong.

Random Stuff: I know someone who's dating a knight. Named Travis.
Quote for today: "Boys will laugh at anything. Especially farts. It's pathetic. One wonders how they will survive...and then we remember...ah, yes, females..."

Elphie

June 24, 2006

2006-06-24T12:45:00.000-07:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 4 DAYS!!!

YAY!

But anyway. I'm going to college registration...yuck, and I got to have a endoscopy this weekend to find out why I keep losing weight. No one knows and all their *fun* little tests came back negative, and now I've got four little bruises on my throat.

YAAAAY.
(not)

So yeah. Exciting week.
Someone comment on my blog before I get all bored...or something.

Random Thought: Christine Daae is really rather retarded. When a guy shows up in YOUR mirror, the logical reaction is to RUN...not go THROUGH THE MIRROR.

Quote for today: "The Angel of Music sings songs in my head..."
"She's mad!"

Elphie

June 14, 2006

2006-06-14T12:13:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT I SAW YESTERDAY??!!?!?!?!?!

Elphie

June 13, 2006

2006-06-13T07:37:00.000-07:00

YES! Just when I thought my life couldn't be any closer to hell, it is!!!

My mother actually found a way to get out of shopping with me.

And then denied that she "didn't want me to go."

Riiiight.

So now, I get to spend my entire day at home, without friends, without anyplace to go, mentally screaming at the top of my lungs-the same way I spent the day yesterday.

It's like you're screaming into infinity...just screaming but no one can hear you.

Awesome.

Elphaba

June 12, 2006

2006-06-12T18:13:00.000-07:00

So.

Today sucked and I promised to blog about it.

So...yeah.
I got in a massive fight with my mom
So. That went well.

After that, I got a message from SuperSibs saying that I didn't win the scholarship, along with a sweet little story about a 5-year-old with leukemia, and the story is told by his older brother.

Joy.

So, the ending sucked. The kid had your typical, run-of-the mill ending, he ended up having a minor episode at the older brother's band concert, everyone thought he was gonna die, younger brother was fine, all the money issues were neatly resolved and the family continued life like normal with their 50% chance-for-life son.

How about real life?

The kid, in a month or so, massively relapses. Over the course of months or weeks, he weakens, he becomes incapable of speech, his skins greys, his eyes turn red from lack of tears while his parents sob and pray over him. His eating habits become irregular, he is placed in a diaper, he moans constantly, crying out in his sleep until you want to scream and scream and scream that you can't bear it anymore. Then you wonder at the relief you would feel if it ends, even if that means death.

How about that endless hole that remains forever after the death? The pictures, the tears, the minute shrines all over the house? The relatives, who "oh so kindly' request the senior pictures with your dead sibling in them...besides the pretty ones you sent them? What about the parents who weep at night? What about that vacant look they get when you say his name? What about the idiot people from hospice who overbill you for something he never used because he DIED? What about the people who call for surveys, about "how it feels" to lose someone? What about hearing your mother repeatedly bemoan early empty nest syndrome? What about the overprotectiveness? What about that? TRY REAL LIFE!!!

Yeah.

Bad day.

Quote for today: "Cause you had a bad day..."

Elphaba

June 9, 2006

2006-06-09T14:30:00.000-07:00

Um...this is random, but it's presently the most amusing thing in my week, so bear with me.

Boys are funny.

Particularly boys dressed in a dark red basketball jersey and shorts, while wearing a rainbow-colored afro wig...while pretending to be Richard Simmons, and singing.

Sounds like a joke.
And somehow it's reality.
Whoever said reality is funnier than fiction was SO right.

Quote for today: "I'm a pony! I'm a pony!"

Elphie

June 6, 2006 (Part II)

2006-06-06T16:01:00.000-07:00

I thought I was finished.

I'm not. Sorry.

Today was my kid brother's 16th birthday.

But anyway.

So, no one really knows about this blog except two, maybe three people.
Which sucks for me, but what can you do?

Anyway.

Words of wisdom:

People have developed remarkable ways of hiding their "true selves." Our world, in the words of Shakespeare, is "a stage, and all its people merely players." I'm going to be slightly intellectual for a moment here and agree with that. All the world is a stage, and all people are actors in the most dramatic performance they will ever give-the one that is Life. But beyond that, people, and I firmly believe this, most of the world has perfected the skill of acting.

Now before anyone gets their feathers ruffled, let me explain.

People as a whole have learned to hide their emotions relatively well. Some people are so good at it that they may hide their true feelings from everyone they know and their facade remains intact up until their dying day. It takes, and I tell you this from experience, years to perfect such a facade, and even longer to maintain it to the point that when your true self actually emerges, it may startle people who "thought" they knew you.

So, what do I mean by the term"actors?"

I mean that almost every person in the world has perfected this "mask" that they wear by the time they leave high school. Those who cannot perfect the mask become ghosts, they disappear quietly from the world, because their emotions cannot be contained and handled effectively, they cannot construct the perfect porcelian mask of happiness that their peers put on at a moment's notice. The people who perfect this mask are the ones who go on. The ones who are the best at keeping this mask are the ones who find their lives empty and devoid of joy at middle age-they find themselves staring helplessly at the past, wondering vaguely how a life of such material success has led to absolutely nothing truly fulfilling, and why, if they have everything, they are still completely alone in their emptiness.

These are the people who go to therapists, who develop drinking problems, who have affairs, who search for what is missing.

Those who have cracks are better off. Those whose acting "skills" are not as good as some. Those who cannot keep those minute cracks from spreading like spiderwebs across their masks, until glimpses of reality, like sunlight through a cloud, are revealed. Theirs is a life that is difficult, but they will find joy if they allow someone else, because they depend on, beg for, long for someone else to help them remove their mask.

Then there are those without masks-at least, they wear them very infrequently. Those are the people with a radiance that lights up a room, that makes every person weep when they are sad-the one whose heart is open for all to see, without shame as tears trickle down their faces, despite those who turn away. These are the people who will scream their pain to the world when they are hurting-will find those few people who know them and let them know their pain. These are the people who-when asked how they are, will not simply say "fine" because it is easy. These people will meet your eyes, with untold depths that people rarely see nowadays-and they will let you read how they are feeling, so that before they even begin to speak, they have shown you their heart, and given you the choice to listen.

A poet once wrote "We wear the mask."

There are too many people who have perfected the art of acting. Too many have fooled even those who love them the most. Too many have fooled friends and family into believing the character of optimism, or perhaps of indifference that they choose to portray. I beg of you, whomever it is that chooses to read my words: do not believe this! Do not allow a character to blind you to what people are really feeling! Too many have been lost, too many teens have fallen prey to depression and anger and hate, too many have died because we as a people were too blind to see! Do not be fooled, do not let tragedy strike because you accept things as you want to see them. Take a look.

You may just see through someone else's mask today.

Quote for right now: "I'm not profound, I just speak my mind."
--me

Elphie

June 6, 2006

2006-06-06T14:13:00.000-07:00

So, Glinda took me to a coupla AMAZING places yesterday.

We went to a park, and we saw bison and elk.
And it was cool. Because we went to this pavilion, and the elk were all standing under it around the picnic tables, which was really funny. We, ok, Glinda took a movie of it on her cameraphone, and we had fun going to all these cool places and looking at the trees, and the lake. Oh yeah, and this little kid was feeding the geese and they starting pecking him, so he had to run away.

(it was a little bit funny...a little)

And...yeah. After that, we went to this nifty (isn't that a great word? nifty...) little Pharmacy/Soda Fountain place that was just cool. Of course, we almost got hit like eighty times, not to mention FLATTENED by a huge electric truck, lol. So, we went inside, and had food, that was cool. But they had the NEATEST little cup....holder....thingies, and magnets, and it was cool. And so, then we rode around, and the windshield wipers were on most of the way home, because it rained like no other....but only on Glinda's car.

It was kind of odd.

But yeah.

It was freaking amazing.

Best day I've had in a really, really long time.

Not like today.

Random Thought: If I were a chicken...would I cross the road?
Quote for today: "Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. No other road, no other way...no day but today."

Elphie

June 5, 2006

2006-06-05T07:52:00.000-07:00

I love summer.

I love thunderstorms in summer.

I love waking up to the smell of dew on the grass, and the way the sunlight spills like gold over the leaves when the air is so clean and beautiful after an evening storm.

Summer's pretty much amazing.

fin

Random Thought: I like italics.
Quote for today: "What are men compared to rocks and mountains?"

Elphie

May 29, 2006

2006-05-29T16:33:00.000-07:00

Not much to say, really.

Except...

Well.

Glinda, check "Joanne's" comments-I think you know what I mean.

Frankly, I'm in a pure Elphaba mood right now...so please, just...everyone leave me alone. I'm sick and tired of hurt and pain, and I brought it on myself.

Just...

Happy Birthday.

Elphie

May 26, 2006

2006-05-26T15:20:00.000-07:00

I've been told that I'm the girl from the song, "Konstantine."

While that's sweet-it's completely wrong. I'm not that girl. And that wasn't an allusion to Wicked. I'm not who everyone seems to believe I am.

At least, there is one person who knows that.

That I'm certainly "intriguing..." quote...end quote.

However you write that, lol. Or not. I'm not laughing.

Sometimes...well.
You joke that I couldn't ever be Mimi.
Trust me, you couldn't be more wrong.

Maureen?
Well, we know she exists.
And Elphie too.
Elphaba, most certainly.

Well.
Let me explain.

I use character names to describe the three main ways I behave around people. Those three are Elphaba, Elphie, and Maureen.

Elphaba usually describes me when I'm unhappy. I get extremely sarcastic, cynical, and generally mean. I'll either go completely "out" on you, meaning I'll get really calm, almost cold, and I'll just talk quietly to you-but my eyes look weird. That's when I'm really upset. Or, I'll just be nasty. I'll lash out at people, get mad or sad really quickly, or I'll hole up in my car for hours singing angry songs really loud.

Elphie describes me when I'm happy. That's when I'm optimistic, cheery, and get hyper waaaay too easily. I act like such a goofball, but that comes from being a dorky theatre kid.

Maureen is...well...watch RENT and you'll get it. I hate it when I act like her. She's an annoying character and I have annoying character traits like her, and kind of like Mimi.

Now, don't think I've have multiple personalities. I don't. As with most people, I tend to identify with stage or movie characters. So, the way I describe the way I feel is by comparing myself to characters most people will recognize. Stereotypes, if you will. Understand that I'm perfectly sane, and I'm not experiences blanks in time or memory loss...so don't hit me with "psychobabble." I'm moody, to say the least, and I'm a theatre kid, and a writer...a rather interesting combination-and I'd like to think I'm an interesting person. The way I describe me is "intense." I have an intense personality with extreme differences in feeling-when I'm happy, which is most of the time (no, I'm not lying, Glinda, so quit thinking you KNOW everything) you know it. I love being happy, so I try to be happy most of the time. Obviously, being human, I can't be happy all the time, and so when I'm sad-I get really sad. My friends can attest to that. I have shed so many tears, alone, mind you-that sometimes I wonder how a person can still be alive after crying that long.

Believe it or not, your heart can actually hurt if you are in enough pain.

But...pain aside, I can get really angry too. So can everyone. I just internalize things, I guess, is my issue. I worry-oh my goodness, I worry so much.

My worst fear? Death, for sure.
I'm terrified of dying, as absurd as that sounds. It scares the heck out of me.

And yet sometimes I'm pretty good at ignoring that thing we call conscience.

I'm so sorry. This post is so moody, omg! I'm actually in a really good mood, believe it or not, but when I blog I always sound so angsty, it's really rather ridiculous. Actually, a good way to sum up this personality of mine is Elizabeth Bennet: tempestous, furious at times, sweet at others, witty, occasionally reckless, but with a heart open to all the love she can give. I'm a nut, (preferably an almond, inside joke, lol) but I'm a happily sane theatre nut. And I'm a teenager, which accounts for my moodiness.

BUT.

I'm also a theatre kid. And a writer. I explore the emotions of others, some who have existed, some who haven't. I read-extensively. I thrive on books like the Lord of the Rings, and I thrill at stories like The Crucible or Macbeth. Hand me something like Pride and Prejudice and I'll talk like I've just stepped out of the 18th century. And the one thing, the one secret I've learned? Every-and I mean EVERY writer has the same thing in each of their books. The secret?

The eyes.

People's eyes don't lie. Unless someone is completely, totally devoid of emotion-which can happen if enough evil has penetrated their life-there is always that truth in their eyes. Don't believe me? Try it sometime. It might surprise you. I think in part, that's why I worry. I can see so many people faking how that really feel-it's crazy. Watch those people who don't meet your eyes-they are the ones who need to talk to you-they've learned that you can read their eyes. Trust me on this-if they will not, above all else, look at you, they want very, oh...so desperately to talk-to tell someone their troubles, their heartaches. The thing is, they need to know they can trust you. Trust you not to laugh, or preach, or rebuke them. All they want is someone to LISTEN.

In case you missed that-you don't always have to talk.
If they want you to talk, they'll tell you.

And if you listen-God gives you the most profound things to say if you ask Him for it. It's amazing.

But anyway.
Enough of me.
Go out and listen to someone, let them pour out their heart to you.
That's my charge today.
Because if you read all of this, you just listened to me.
And I'm not lying when I tell you:

Being a listener has made me one of the happiest people I know.
And perhaps you think I'm stupid, or crazy, or both. I would be lying if I said I didn't care. Since I'm obviously not insane, and I am, in fact, reasonably intelligent-as well as a fairly proficient writer when I express my thoughts, I only hope that you haven't written me off in these first few paragraphs. Maybe you never read this far, maybe you did. Whichever the case-I've been real---honest in this little blog of mine. Exposing one's "self" always is met with skepticism and ridicule by some. But if my honesty, at least in this, means something to one person-then I've done something.

Quote for today: "My voice may only have been a whisper, but someone may have heard."

Elphie

May 22, 2006

2006-05-22T12:26:00.000-07:00

So. I graduate today.

I don't want to.

Can I refuse change? Is that allowed? Can I refuse to move, to grow up, to leave the people I love?

Can't I simply go to Neverland and live there forever?
Do I have to grow up and become an adult, and manage my own life?

I'm never going to leave you.
You know who you are.
You know, I've hesitated in the past, said I didn't know the future-I don't have to know the future. I will always be here. Always. For Good.

I've got to stop now before I start crying.

I hate change.

Elphie

May 21, 2006

2006-05-21T16:21:00.000-07:00

So, I am now trying to figure out what to do with my summer. Turns out, this audition for Seussical was, in short, rigged.

I was one of two kids from my school who received a callback for the show. Unfortunately, the remainder of those who made the callback list had performed Seussical not once, but twice with this director, who clearly knew all of them personally.

SO.

1) The show was precast.
2) The director was extremely unprofessional. He called me by the incorrect name throughout the audition (this is community theatre) and outright laughed at me when I asked the pianist to play a note for me.
3) The director allowed two of his former leads to try out a day late, the day of callbacks so that he could have them in this particular show.
4) Unprofessional? YES.
5) And he had the audacity to offer me the lowest chorus role in the entire show.

I don't know about the rest of the theatre world-perhaps it really is this biased-but I would get tired of doing the same show with the same people repeatedly. It's sad, because I consider myself to be a talented performer, and unfortunately, I'm not sure I will ever be given the chance to try my wings solo on a stage.

It seems that the key to theatre is knowing people-but you have to know them since infancy....which would be difficult-not many infants have contacts on Broadway.

But, I'm not about to give up.

Random Thought: Out of all the real pirates who ever lived, Blackbeard, one of the most fearsome pirates, had the cheesiest flag.

Quote for today: "Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them."

~Elphie

May 18, 2006

2006-05-18T16:23:00.000-07:00

HIGH SCHOOL IS OVER FOR-EVAH!!!!

NEVER AGAIN DO I HAVE TO WALK THOSE HALLS CONTEMPLATING WHAT HOMEWORK I HAVE YET TO COMPLETE BEFORE CLASS!

NEVER AGAIN MUST I FACE MADAME MORRIBLE FOR AN AUDITION!

NEVER AGAIN WILL I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH INANE PRINCIPALS!

BUT!

SENIOR FAREWELL IS MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

DEFYING GRAVITY?! OH YES.
I ALLOWED MYSELF CAFFEINE TODAY TO CELEBRATE.
A BOTTLE OF CHERRY COKE.

I HAVEN'T HAD CAFFEINE IN 6 MONTHS!

Sorry.
I'm just a LITTLE hyper!

I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEE!

Elphie

May 15, 2006

2006-05-15T15:20:00.000-07:00

So.

I assume things. Way too much.

After a serious self evaluation-I am not a very nice person.
And I need a hug.

And my inner demons are catching up with me.

And I keep thinking I can outrun them.

And I suck at communicating with normal people.
Like...I really suck at it.

But I have love.
Love for my family, and for two very special friends, Glinda and Galadriel.

Four pages never will cover all I want to say.

And there is so much always left unsaid.
And this...I just sound stupid.

So I'm done.

(and yes, I want the password)

Random Thought: Why can I live life as people other than me, but I avoid living for myself?

Quote for today: "I follow the night...can't stand the light."
"When will life be...through with me."
"Why live life-from dream to dream? ...and dread the day...when dreaming...ends."

May 11, 2006

2006-05-11T20:05:00.000-07:00

Ever have one of those days?

Ever have one of those days that lasts all week?

And that just got worse tonight?

ME TOO.

Elphie

May 8, 2006

2006-05-08T19:14:00.000-07:00

So, I auditioned for Seussical: The Musical, on Saturday, for a community theatre in my area, and yay! I got a callback! So, today, the day before callbacks, I ran out and got the CD-and discovered that there are 28 songs on the CD. Wow. SO

I really want the part of Gertrude McFuzz, a cutsey little bird with only one feather in her tail. She's the sweetest little thing, and she's kind of in love with Horton the Elphant.

Bizarre story? HA! I'm SOOO not even through the entire CD yet.

Wow.

I. Am. So. Screwed.

But anyway!

Optimism! Oh yes, optimism. That's the idea.
So....I'm excited. I'll get to put this on my resume. Cross fingers and pray that I get a good part!!!!!

That's all that's occupying my mind today.

OH!

And Prisonbreak was freaking AMAZING tonight!
They FINALLY escaped! It only took them two seasons and six bazillion issues. And apparently the doctor's an ex-junkie.

Good to know.

So yeah.

I love everybody (you know who you are!!!!)

Quote of the Day: "Shouse is a Shousey guy."
Random Thought: I came up with a great line for one of my stories today. So I was happy.

I MIGHT GET A SPEAKING ROLE IN A SHOW!!!!!

BE EXCITED!!!

Elphie

May 1, 2006

2006-05-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

Rant about...WORK

Why do customers always sneeze on their money and then hand it to me?

Why do people hand me Hallmark cards face up, (like 20 of them) and the act annoyed when I have to take 5 minutes and turn them all over so I can scan the bar code?

Why do people pay me in change?!?!

Why do people immediately become idiots when they become customers? Does being a customer entitle you to an "I'm an Idiot Card?"

ARRRRGH!

I'm only a cashier! I'm not the Supreme Intelligence Holder of all Retail Stores in the United States!!! I cannot truthfully tell you that I want to hear all the sordid details on your recently contracted case of poison ivy and all the disgusting places you have it! I cannot tell you what flavor Marborol 27s are: I. Don't. Smoke.

April 27, 2006

2006-04-27T19:50:00.000-07:00

SO! Test #2.

Grr.

I've got millions of thoughts and no words to accompany them....so...I dunno. Pray I remember something on this stupid test.

Luv to everybody.

Elphie

April 25, 2006

2006-04-25T16:06:00.000-07:00

So I'm in love with a dude named Fitzwilliam.

Lol.

No, I've got nothing. Really.
I have a major test tomorrow, so I have no right to be on here. But...oh well. I went to the zoo yesterday-and somehow...WAIT!!!! Great idea!!! fun quotes from P&P!!! (and no, Glinda, not all are Darcy's, and if you read them all, some are quite funny)

And while I say the last one is the best for opening a proposal, Darcy is the Proposal Master.

Mr. Darcy: Miss Elizabeth. I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. I came to Rosings with the single object of seeing you... I had to see you. I have fought against my better judgment, my family's expectations, the inferiority of your birth by rank and circumstance. All these things I am willing to put aside and ask you to end my agony.
Elizabeth Bennet: I don't understand.
Mr. Darcy: I love you.

Mr. Bennet: How happy for you, Mr. Collins, to possess a talent for flattering with such... delicacy.
Elizabeth Bennet: Do these pleasing attentions proceed from the impulse of the moment, or are they the result of previous study?
Mr. Collins: They arise chiefly from what is passing of the time. And though I do sometimes amuse myself with arranging such little elegant compliments, I always wish to give them as unstudied an air as possible.
Elizabeth Bennet: Oh, believe me, no one would suspect your manners to be rehearsed. *Jane kicks her under the table*

Elizabeth Bennet: I wonder whoever discovered the power of poetry in driving away love?
Mr. Darcy: I thought poetry was the food of love.
Elizabeth Bennet: Of a fine stout love it may, but if it is only a vague inclination I'm convinced one poor sonnet will kill it stone dead.
Mr. Darcy: So what do you reccomend, to encourage affection?
Elizabeth Bennet: Dancing, even if one's partner is barely tolerable.

And FINALLY...the best opening line to a proposal EVER:

Mr. Bingley: First I must start off by saying that I have been a most unmitigated and uncompromising ass.

April 23, 2006

2006-04-23T10:16:00.000-07:00

Well, I have been waiting...and waiting...and WAITING for a letter from Abilene's theatre program, and I got one yesterday-finally.

"We regret to inform you that you have not been accepted into the theatre program at this time."

WELL.

*deep breath*

That sucks, just a little bit. Eh, well. If I want to major in theatre, I got to be able to handle theatre's major rejections.

And...mwhahaha...I have a PLAN.

Step 1: Do what I didn't do last time.
Step 2: Get an acting coach.
Step 3: Put together some freaking awesome monologues.
Step 4: Put together a freaking awesome 16-bar Broadway solo piece.
Step 5: Work butt off in tap class.
Step 6: Work butt off practicing at home.
Step 7: Never give up.
Step 8: Never shed a tear.
Step 9: Get to Abilene.
Step 10: Minor in theatre.
Step 11: Prove to them that they want me, need me, in their major.

I, my pretties, have a plan. And money. Money helps.

Lol.
Watch out!!!! I'm feelin' a little crrrrrazzzzzzy!

Random Thought: IF-In a Lesson Before Dying, Vardaman's mother is a fish, and Darl's mother is (hypothetically) a horse--then doesn't that make their mother a *gasp* seahorse?

Quote for today: "And if I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free-to those who'd ground me, take a message back from me!!!! Tell them how I am defying gravity! I'm flying high--I'm defying gravity. And soon I'll match them in renown...and nobody, in all of Oz, no Wizard that there is or was, is ever gonna bring me down!!!!"

(and you CAN'T pull me down!!!!)

Elphie

April 17, 2006

2006-04-17T14:56:00.000-07:00

Every once in a long while, God decides to send you a message in human form. He did that for me today.

He lifted me up when I was utterly lost in darkness, when I thought there was no hope left for me.

And he gave me a "biggest fan."

Everyone needs one of those people. Those are the people who keep us sane.

If I was ever sane to begin with, lol.

...

Did I mention I'm still madly in love with a certain gentleman named Fitzwilliam?

And, random note.

Ask God for divine appointments. I have been...and it's amazing what he'd done for me.

And I'm thinking he might be trying to lead me towards counseling.

Grr....

I'd rather do theatre.

Is it possible to do both?

Elphie

April 15, 2006

2006-04-15T10:23:00.000-07:00

I have to work today-which means there are going to be several hours that I get to spend thinking. Today, I know what I'll be thinking about, and I'm frankly just stressed right now. It's not just scholarships or theatre-it's life in general. It's where I stand spiritually, if I was ever truly standing at all-and how do I get back on my feet again. And how, how do I stand when I am on my knees before God, pleading, begging for His forgiveness. How do I stand when the most I deserve from Him is death for my sins? The answer is, I don't. I have to let His grace lift me up.

My issue is-I have trouble accepting it.

And I fail. Repeatedly. At the same thing. These failures break my heart, and His, I think, and I wonder what I did to walk so far away from His perfect plan. And I search so hard for that path, or pretend to search, even as I walk farther away. I see the path, but I'm in two minds about it. Some days I head towards the path, but others, well, I run away from the path. It's ridiculous.

So that's why, today, I'm making a commitment.

No matter what it takes, I'm turning around. No matter what I lose, no matter how much it hurts, no matter how long it takes-I'm turning back to that path. And that's the one I'm sticking to-with one mind, one goal, one outlook. No more fooling around. I'm done with being a lukewarm Christian. It's the easy way out-I'm taking God's road. I'm on it. And I'm not going to step off it again. And flame me, debate me, yell at me, cry at me, tell me that I'm a sinner and I AM! But I'm a forgiven sinner, and that makes all the difference.

In Christ,

Elphie

April 3, 2006

2006-04-03T16:00:00.000-07:00

Lament of the Cashier

I hate it when people bring their carts to the register, walk three feet past the cart corral, and leave their cart next to the cart corral so I have to put it away....all fifteen of them.

I hate it when people pay five dollar purchases with nickels and dimes.

I hate it when people pay with those Sachajawea dollars....like twenty of them-I have to count them...by hand...at eleven o' clock at night.

I hate it when people ask me where something is and they're standing two feet away from it.

I hate it when people ask stupid questions.

I hate it when people tell me the intercom music is annoying. As if I have the power to change it. Honestly...do you really think I want to hear "Magic Man" and "Silver Thunderbird" sixty-two billion times a day?

I hate it when people act like I am the cause of their problems...because the stupid plastic bags get stuck together.

I hate it when people bleed all over my counter. It's gross.

I hate it when people open boxes of Band-Aids and throw the crap all over. And when they open Juicy-Fruit packages, eat three pieces, and leave the rest when it costs 99 cents. And then they hide it. Like no one is going to look under the Cheez-its.

I hate it when people try to cheat me out of money. For some reason, they think I'm stupid.

I hate it when the sky is green outside...and people want to know if it's supposed to rain....and there's lightening.

I love my job.

Elphie

March 24, 2006

2006-03-24T21:20:00.000-08:00

I UPDATED!!!!

I'm tired, and I've already written one email and one comment on someone else's blog...so this is short.

One: Abstract monlogues are WEIRD.
Two: "When" and "Hwhen" are TWO ENTIRELY DIFFERENT SOUNDS.
Three: "Everything" does not have a "g-a" on the end of it.
Four: Billboards can scare the crap out of me sometimes.
Five: High School Musical is freaking hilarious.
Six: I like Nancy Drew PC games.
Seven: Yes, I am aware what a HUGE dork I am.
Eight: Quit laughing at me.
Nine: I'm obsessed with theatre. I can't live without it. Ever.
Ten: Yes, V. Nessa, I AM OBSESSED WITH WICKED!!! (lol)

Random Thought for today: I think I'm just going to put red lowlights in my
hair....no layers. I kind of like it long. Auburn. Long.

Quote for today: "No! No! No! Stick to the stuff you know-oh-oh! If you wanna
be cool, follow one simple rule! Stick to the Status Quo!"
--High School Musical (a movie)

Positively Emerald,

Elphie

March 15, 2006

2006-03-15T05:27:00.000-08:00

So, I like pirates. Excluding CJS, I just love the idea of pirates. Even though, yes, they were murderers, and thieves, and general all around scumbags...and alchoholics...it's still a fascinating idea. You don't like your little 1800's family? Go become a pirate! Oppressed girl in 1800's family? Go dress up like a guy and go become a pirate! (and hope you don't get discovered...) Want to become a sailor? Usually end up being a pirate! Want to be a pirate? GO BECOME A PIRATE!!!!

Yeah...am on a pirate kick. Talking to Carley tends to do that.
!!!
I used someone's real name.
Heaven forbid.
No one knows her tho...so it's all good.
Except for Glinda...but she's not the stalker type.

Random Thought for today: The Moose Song makes me laugh. A lot.
More than it should.
Quote for today: "RAINSTORM!!!!"

March 9, 2005

2006-03-09T16:01:00.000-08:00

So...we had the middle school show today.

They laughed whenever we said the word "ass."
Whoo-hoo for maturity.

But-fun note: I scared the crap out of a middle-schooler who decided that he was going to (oh my, how amazingly daring and clever of him) sit in the seat right next to the ramp. Which he chose to do after the ushers were gone. Much to my amusement, after the fairies' first entrance, he was in the aisle, freaking out.

Anyway.

Glinda went to festival today. Go mellophones!!!! (hope you got a I!!!!)

Aaaaaand, by the way-yes, I DO know there's purple in my hair. And at my hairline. And on my neck.

What?

I have purple on me?

NO.
WAY.

-_-

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....I'm done now.
Isn't my life so exciting?

Random Thought: "I love you times infinity!" .... "That doesn't exist yet!"

Quote for today: "Ninuth's tomb! NinuTH's tomb!!!"

Elphie

March 7, 2006

2006-03-07T13:01:00.000-08:00

Here we are...three days after my show has officially opened!!!!

And I am dead tired-not that I'm complaining, which admittedly, I do...a lot. But so is everyone else-however, I'm doing what I love. Albeit, being a fairy is an interesting experience, but I love it just the same. Going home looking like a underdone egglplant every night is just icing on the cake.

So...college things are interesting. I'm spending my Spring Break resting. No wild adventures for me-just rest and relaxation after I go interview for a scholarship down in Texas. Hopefully, they'll send me some kind of letter regarding their theatre program soon.

Hmm...what else...

I discovered that Matthew MacFayden is in another of my favorite movies..other than P & P. He's also in The Reckoning, a unique British film which is the equivalent of a medieval murder mystery, told by a Catholic priest desperately seeking redemption (Paul Bettany) and a group of Players in need of a new play to fund their craft. It's based on a book called Morality Play, but I like the movie better.

Glinda and I got to hang out (finally!) this weekend. It was amazing-we talked for awhile, and generally had a great time. She's just....so cool. My keyboard is going to worn out when I go to college, namely those letters in her name...because this is one friend who I'm NOT going to lose contact with. She's too special for that.

...and I want her to make sure my Mr. Darcy proposes in proper "Darcy" fashion.

...or I'll be extremely upset.

And I need her to plan my wedding-that-is-never-going-to-happen.

Anyway.
I updated.
Be happy.

Come see A Midsummer Night's Dream-there's three shows left!!!!!

And stay after the first intermission...it gets realllllllly funny after that.

Random Thought: "puppy...puppy...puppy...puppy..."

Quote for today: "A most tragical mirth and tedious brief scene..."

Go see the show. It'll all make sense.
Except for the fairies.
I apologize for the incessant giggling in advance.
I'm not the director.
I've been directed to giggle...so I contribute to the annoyance. Sorry.

Elphie (Violet)

February 27, 2006

2006-02-27T20:27:00.000-08:00

TOMORROW I GET TO BUY PRIDE AND PREJUDICE!

I GET TO SEE MR. DARCY!!!!

(oh, and by the way-fun link.) http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/pirates/

Random Thought: "I'm a purple fairy, tall and crazy..."
Quote for today: "Oh bugger..." (watch the clip, attatched to the link)

I have alternately hated and loved my life today.
Watch out folks. The Wicked Witch of the West is on her way...and she'll get you, pretties...and your dogs...too...

February 22, 2006

2006-02-22T21:15:00.000-08:00

6 DAYS UNTIL PRIDE AND PREJUDICE COMES OUT ON DVD!!!! MR. DARCY!!!!!

...and for Miss Glinda...

CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW!!!!
(He swaggers, he swindles, he smiles, and sings...what's NOT to love?!)

Random Thought: I like meerkats. They're cute. (DiscoveryHD, lol)

Quote for today: (still pirate-themed)
"To a short life...and a merry one."

...apparently a short life was a common theme here...or an expectation...

Elphie

February 21, 2006

2006-02-21T19:06:00.000-08:00

PRIDE AND PREJUDICE COMES OUT ON DVD IN 7 DAYS!!!!

And go look up Anne Bonny and Mary Reade. Two freaking cool women.

Random thought for today: My dream theatre roles? Elphaba, Joan of Arc, Elizabeth Bennett, Abigail (Crucible), Eponine (Les Miserables)

Quote for today: "To a short life. To youth. To freedom."
- a pirate toast

February 11, 2006

2006-02-11T10:59:00.000-08:00

Sooooo....

H.G. and I sang "For Good" at the Variety Show last night, and it was AMAZING. We had so much fun-and Glinda came to see me!!!!! That was really neat...I got to sing for her. *smilies*

Anyhoo, if you know me personally, we've got another show tonight, so bring $5 and buy a ticket at the door-come see me!!! (haha, shameless advertising)

And for my own amusement...
A certain Madame Morrible felt unobligated to comment on my singing. *amused* I guess finally realizing that you might've ignored potential talent makes you speechless.

Random Thought: So...if I were to dye my hair dark red (think auburn with dark brown/red) should I cut it short, or leave it long?

Quote for today: "I don't cause commotions, I AM one!"

Elphie

Quote

February 8, 2006

2006-02-08T20:20:00.000-08:00

Yeah, so, I'm not writing tons, just a coupla things:

Please pray for my mom; she's not feeling well and she's been sleeping most of the day, which means she's really feeling bad. It takes a big sickness to take her out.

Also, pray for me, that I get all this crud out of my throat before Feb. 17.

Thank God for miracles!!! I got an A- on a Geoscience quiz, of all things, and my teacher said our presentation was the best all day! No more C's in science!!!

And...just college stuff. Pray that the theatre people will see something in me they like and that I won't be nervous or forget my monologues. But anyhoo, it's late and I'm tired from tap. SO-thanks for reading.

And Glinda-I'm so sorry I called H.G. by your name today. I don't usually do that, but I'm tired and the Variety Show and teacher are really getting to me, and this college stuff has put my head in about sixty different places. Forgive me. (I lost my water bottle four or five times because I kept moving it...I'm such a mess...)

Anyhoo, goodnight all, and I love Paul Bettany!
(ha! not Wicked or LoTR!)

And The Reckoning.

Random Thought: "I am the Cheese Master of ALL THE WORLD!!!"

Quote for today: Chaucer: "Good people! I missed my introduction! But please - please, I pray you - hear it now, for I would lay rest the grace in my tongue, and speak plain. Days like these are too rare to cheapen with heavy-handed words. And so, I'm afraid, without any ado whatsoever - here he is! One of your own! Born a stone's throw from this very stadium, and here before you now… the son of John Thatcher - Sir William Thatcher!"

Elphie

February 5, 2005

2006-02-05T14:11:00.000-08:00

I don't have to work until next Sundaaaaay!
Whoo-hoo!!!

SUPER BOWL PARTY AT MY HOUSE!!!!!
I confess...I know nothing about football.
Saw Glinda and her bf yesterday. We laughed about Cosmo magazines. Very fun. Had a drunk guy call Walgreens. Here is the convo word for word:

Me:
Guy:

"Hello?"
"..."
"Hello?"
"HEEEEEY!"
"Hello! This is Walgreens, how may I help you?"
"HEEEEEEY!"
"Hello."
"HEEEEY! How many kids do you have?"
"Excuse me?"
"How many kids do you have?"
"Sir, may I redirect you to the photo or pharmacy department?"
"You know what you can do for me? You can enter into a gay relationship with a woman."
"Thank you for calling, sir. Call back again sometime."
"Click."

Ah yes. Walgreens...is interesting.
This doesn't include the drunk woman who showed me her boots...by putting her feet on the counter...

Much amusement.

Oooh....the TV just said "enigmatic..." gooood word...even though I'm not entirely sure what it means.

Random Thought (a new addition to my blog.) For Today: Hmmm....I wonder what I would look like as a redhead... (like a darker red, not carrot red)

Quote for today: "I've got a lovely bunch of coconuts...tweedle-dee-dee...here they are all standing in a row (dun dun dun) Big ones, small ones, some as big as your head!!!"

February 1, 2006

2006-02-01T15:59:00.000-08:00

So...I dunno. I'm a little down today.

I don't know. I've managed to make a mess of the one thing that meant the most to me. It sucks to know that...and wonder if maybe I screwed it up for good this time. I mean, it feels like I "fixed" things a little...but some damage can't be undone...and well...

It just sucks. That's all I got. Now I think I'll go practice being a fairy and hole up with computer and my homework for a couple hours. Or maybe I should do a monologue.

You know what? The reason I act, the reason I do theatre-it's because I feel safe being other people. They are who I can never be. Real life...it's a chore...it takes work, and I have this remarkable tendency to be obnoxious when I'm me. When I'm someone else-well, I'm not responsible for them, am I? So, I'll continue living other people's lives until I finish mine...because Life, in and of itself...is a demanding, terrifying place. And frankly, I'd rather be a fairy than awkward, redundant, reluctant, shy, nosy Elphie. At least fairies don't have homework.

As if that's the full extent of my problems. Ha.

So-there's my little moody post. You want honesty? There it is. Normally I go back and erase this and repost when I'm happier. But-in the spirit of the aforementioned ridiculousness of Truth, you get to read my darker side.

Enjoy.

Quote for today: "I can do anything I want. I'm the Wicked Witch of the West."

Elphaba

January 31, 2006

2006-01-31T20:34:00.000-08:00

Glinda....I love you.
I always will....even if I pull a b-witch again and we let this amazing thing we have fade...thank you. Thank you for making me something better, for telling me so much about myself and teaching me how to open my heart.

I love you.
And I KNOW you're not my sister....but I'm gonna treat you like one anyway.
Thanks for loving me back...even when I'm a jerk...and for somehow managing to drag things out of me that I try so bloody hard to keep hidden. I still don't know how you do that.

I'm sorry I seem unapproachable sometimes. Forgive me.

I love you, Glinda.

(your) Elphie

Quote for today: "Who can say if I've been changed for the better? BUT-because I knew you, I have been changed for GOOD."

January 26, 2006

2006-01-26T18:57:00.000-08:00

So, I got bored tonight and decided to research geisha, or geiko, the "arts-performers" of Japan, namely in the Kyoto district in Gion. Believe it or not, geisha still exist today, in 2006. They start out as maiko, or apprentices, who leave their families to live at an okiya, where a woman, usually in her late forties, early fifties, runs the house as a surrogate "mother" of sorts, who manages and helps pay for all of her geisha and their expenses regarding schooling and whatnot. Beyond all the stuff that we all already know from Memoirs, the actual life of a geisha is quite different from Arthur Golden's conception of these legendary entertainers. Geisha did not disappear after the second World War, but the interest in the profession has waned, as women are more interested in becoming business associates rather than flirtatious, subdued women of actual class. Contrary to popular belief, namely that of middle aged women, geisha are not prostitutes-how far they do or do not go with a man is their own business, much as a relationship is here in the States, the only difference being that geisha can also dance, sing, perform, and entertain men in the arts of tea ceremony and conversation-far beyond the base talents that we Western women like to boast. Also, nowadays, Golden's heartfelt story of geisha being sold into slavery is largely inaccurate, women in the 21st century are able to choose this as a legitimate profession, and can make good money, especially through new Western interest. Some similarities remain, such as the traditional white makeup of the geisha, but this is only worn to very formal dinners. If you wore dressy clothes to go bowling, you'd have the effect of white makeup for everyday entertainment. Instead, a more dramatic form of makeup, often a pale pink base with rouged cheeks and bold lip color form a modern geisha's makeup, but the traditional kimono remains. Maiko, or apprentice geisha, do, in fact, wear their obis tied high (at the shoulders) like Golden described, and are as brilliantly garbed. Actual geisha wear white kimono with plain decorations, and they wear wigs rather than styling their actual hair. Also, maiko wear very, very tall shoes.

So...that's it.

Quote for today: "Well, the beautiful only seem to get more beautiful...while the green only get greener."

Elphie

January 25, 2006

2006-01-25T20:55:00.000-08:00

So, I let my hair air dry today....and it ended up being curly....not sure if I like it, but Galinda seemed to think it looked New Yorkian...so that's a plus. I'm excited...TLC this weekend!!!! Whoo hoo! Of course, no one will get that unless they know the TLA for everything that IMO is TMI FYI anyway, LOL.

If you aren't Internet literate....

TLA: 3-letter acronyms
IMO: In my opinon
TMI: too much information
FYI: for your information
LOL: Come on, if you don't know that....well...there's no hope.

So, I have a follow-up audition on Sunday with that Talent Agency...I'm really excited. I know I'm not your traditional, blonde, straight-haired beauty queen....but I hope they'll look past that to see that brunettes can be attractive too. (curse acne!!!!) Anyhoo...I'm going to sleep now, but wish me luck!!!

Galinda....I freakin love you....that's all there is to it. You're the best sis in the entire world. *HUGS*

I LOVE IT THAT YOU KNOW WHAT I'M THINKING FROM ACROSS A ROOM!!!!!!!

:)

Quote for today: "You must think I'm stupid."
"Not really stupid...."

Elphie

January 24, 2006

2006-01-24T19:10:00.000-08:00

Saw Galinda today!!!! We went to Tuesday night girl's class...it was awesome, as usual. Galinda....is like my sister. I couldn't live without her to love and to talk to. She cares so much, and knows so much about me...and I love it. I love that she actually noticed I was cold tonight-that she didn't mind loaning me her Wicked CD...that she can love me even for all my cynical Elphaba-obsessed ways. I LOVE YOU GALINDA!!!

*deep breath*

On a completely different note: On www.aim.com check out what they have to say about Brokeback Mountain. Then, I'd like you to try to find where it says "Conservatives bash Brokeback." There is an area where people are to vote on "reviews" provided by certain Christian groups, such as Focus on the Family. The "review" provided for Brokeback Mountain, supposedly by Focus on the Family, is so blatantly anti-Christian it's offensive. Having met several representatives from Focus on the Family during youth retreats and at different churches, I know that this review is not something that would have been published by a FOTF representative. Therefore, I am asking anyone who is listening, please, go to www.aim.com and vote that "Yes" you agree with this review. Not because of what it says, although true, it is very, very harsh and completely unacceptable for a Christian to bash other people this way-but because it's about time Christians made it clear that we won't stand for false information any longer. Right now the standings are 63% vote No, the review is completely wrong, and 37% vote Yes, it's right. Let's take off the glasses and realize that this is a completely different vote than what's presented, rather, see it as it is meant to be seen:

Are Christians right in pointing out the immorality and glorification of homosexuality, which is clearly stated as "detestable" in the Bible?

A. Yes
B. No

Christians, stand up. Let your voice be heard. Think how shocked AIM would be if their results pointed towards Christian sympathies. Who knows? It might get on the news.

And, here's some food for thought. Someone once said to me about a kid at my school: "How can you love a God who doesn't want people like ******** to get married?"

My response: "How can I stand before God in Heaven, and look ******** in the eye, knowing that they might go to Hell because I was too timid to speak out? How can you love that person and refuse any attempt at saving them-we've only got one shot....and I don't want to look this person in the eye and have to hear them ask-'Why didn't you tell me?'"

Quote for today: "Everyone's going off to this ridiculous, cultish....social- gathering..."
"Including me! I'm going too! Isn't it wonderful?"

(regarding dances. frankly, I'd rather learn the Charleston)

Elphie

January 23, 2006

2006-01-23T17:33:00.000-08:00

All right...I have five minutes to post this, so I'm gonna leave a message for Galinda.

Galinda, if you didn't read your blog comments...

I found something of yours in my basement...it was in three pieces-but don't worry, I fixed it!!!! (I'll give you a hint, it's silver and pink!) If you want, I can bring it to school tomorrow...

Quote for today: "Elphie-can I call you Elphie?"
"Well, it's a little...perky..."
"Oh good! And you can call me...Galinda."

Elphie

January 21, 2006

2006-01-21T18:50:00.000-08:00

This...is amazing...

Quote for today: "Don't be afraid..."
"I'm not. It's the Wizard who should be afraid...of me."

Elphie

January 19, 2006

2006-01-19T16:23:00.000-08:00

Hehe...I just now realized it's 2006....

Wow.

So, I auditioned for the Variety Show today with H.G. and Nessa, and I'm pretty sure we got in. One of the other acts is "Rent" from RENT, and J.R.(also known as Mereb), K. Ru. (also known as...Mr. Incredible), and L.M. (also known as Amneris) are all singing it. So, that's cool. There's a blonde trying out with "Popular" tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes. Anyhoo, not much else to write...this weird kid in my Senior Lit. class decided to do tarot readings today, and I went to Weathervane because it's having a liquidation sale, and I got two pairs of capris, and three shirts for $50, so that's really good.

Finally-PRAY for Galinda!!!! She's really sick and I want her to get better! And she wants to get better! And I know, Galinda, that you hate how you look when you're sick, so I hope you get better really fast. I'd come over, but I'm sick-ish, with that cold, and I don't want to give you something else, so I'll stick with loving you online. I love you babe, and I'm praying for you.

*TONS of hugs!!!!*

Quote for today: (Elphaba) "I think about that day a lot."
(Fiyero) "Yeah...me too..."
(Galinda) "And so do I! ...ALL the time!"

Elphie

January 18, 2005

2006-01-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

GALINDAAAAAAA!
I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND...

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've gushed about you on your blog on comments, so I won't do it here, simply because I have something mildly bizarre to write about and I have to write it down before I forget.

So...

Oh...hehe...oh yeah...

So, I'm obsessed with the moon. Ok, it's not really an obession, per se, really more of a fixation. To get this straight, I'm not a werewolf, a witch, or a vampire, but I really love the night, and the way the moon looks with the clouds. Like tonight, the sky made me think of London. The clouds moved over the moon and it looked hazy, kind of golden-ish over top of the white moonlight. And then there's nights where the clouds are black, and the moon makes the sky look dark green, teal, really, and it's like the ocean and the sky switched places. And then, then there's those stormy nights, where the sky is completely black, and the clouds are flying over the moon in rolling mountains of black, and the moon is so white it glows like a lighthouse, and you can smell the rain, and the lightening rips the sky apart in the distance, and the thunder barrels towards you over the clouds...roaring, and its just...amazing.

Some people will think I'm weird. Galinda, I know you'll understand. I just had to gush about the moon a little.

That's to say NOTHING about my star fixation...
The star in the middle of Orion's belt is mine, by the way.

Quote for tonight: "Maybe some of us are different!"

Elphie

January, 16, 2005

2006-01-16T09:54:00.000-08:00

:)

Found this by accident.
Enjoy.

www.fullyrelyongod.info

Want to learn about my little bro?
There he is.

Elphie

THERE'S HOPE!!!

2006-01-15T22:01:00.000-08:00

Green Elphie may be born YET!!!!
(hopefully she doesn't glow...)

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10818583/?GT1=7538

If we can make pigs green...why not humans?

Elphie

January 15, 2005

2006-01-15T21:31:00.000-08:00

I went to work today. I've been sick-lost 10 pounds, not on purpose. Am now 108 lbs. That would explain the light-headedness. Have an essay to write tomorrow. Ick. Might hang out with WLFG (or FG) tomorrow. Depends. Galinda...those antihistimenes must've knocked you out-did you forget about dropping by?

Anyway...

I'm going to bed. Love to all the green girls in the world. Know that there are others like you.

Quote for today: "We can't all come and go by bubble...and apparently, neither can YOU!"

Elphie

January 11, 2006

2006-01-11T20:59:00.000-08:00

Well, it's very late for me, but I think I'll update really fast. I didn't do much today, but I got to see...well, in the spirit of appropriate nicknames, we'll call him Angel, a graduate/alum of my high school. Angel hung out with us most of the day-makes me smile. He's the one of the "realer" people I know, or at least, he's very blatantly honest. Yes, I do believe in "real" and "realer" people. But anyway, that was fun-Angel, you know who you are. Thanks for making one reallly boring day a LOT more fun....

And I don't hate you...

(ok, maybe I'm a little jealous...)

(maybe)

ANYWAY. I should go sleep now, but I'm so excited!!!! Show rehearsals start soon!

OH! Fun thing! In Geoscience today, my teacher was talking about astronomy (don't ask how those correlate, I don't know and I don't care) and about how some stars share names with some of Shakespeare's characters, namely Miranda and Ariel. My teacher then proceeded to explain that these characters were from A Midsummer Night's Dream, to which I responded:

"No, they're not! They're from The Tempest!"

To which I got several blank stares and one very embarrassed teacher.

Appaluse for people who actually READ.

But yeah. Going to bed now. In the spirit of Angel, we've got two quotes today.

Quote #1 for today: "Today for you, tomorrow for ME!"

Quote #2 for today: "You are thinking!" (big grin) "I am about to sleep, because this is profoundly boring to me."

Elphie

January 9, 2005

2006-01-09T18:20:00.000-08:00

Hello, I am back...again.

Whoohoo for ITS. We saw several neat shows, including Evita, Cyrano de Bergerac, and A Funny Thing Happened On the Way to the Forum. So...here is stuff about them....

Evita. Ok....I think someone said "Macbeth" in the theatre, because everything that could have gone wrong did. The lead forgot part of her song, she dropped and stepped on her mike, the light cues got lost at intermission, the lead male almost dropped Evita, and the director looked like he was about to die. Unfortunately for this clearly talented (not being sarcastic) cast, rumor mill tells us that the director asked his ensemble/chorus to learn their parts by ear via cast album. For anyone who knows cast albums, a.k.a., soundtracks- (CD) you can only hear the lead, whereas harmonizing is imposssible to learn by ear. Also, the director had set the first performance of this show for the ITS trip-in front of 1,500 people. Very, very, VERY bad decision. Evita was amazing. She had poise and grace, and exceptional singing talent. She captured her character, but an overpowering (and NOT listening) orchestra made her sound quiet, off-key, and off-tempo, which was unfair. For the rest of the cast-we know they are usually amazing, and we blame the director...not them.

BUT ANYWAY.

I've gushed about Cyrano enough. If you really want more info about it, leave a comment, but I think everyone knows how proud I was of the lead. Broadway star in the making...it's a fact.

Now.

A Funny Thing Happened On the Way to the Forum.

This show is set in Rome. Now. There are a bunch of characters, but I'll give them normal names (not the REAL ones) to make this easier. There are Diana and Andrew, who are married. They have a kid named Hero. Next door to them lives and old guy we'll call...Old Guy. His two children, a boy and a girl, were stolen at birth by pirates, and for twenty years he has been in search of them. Finally, neighbor on the other side of Diana and Andrew is Lychus. (Lie-cuss) Lychus owns a brothel. Upstairs in the brothel is this beautiful virgin named Phelia (fee-lee-ah) Hero and Phelia fall in love, but Phelia has been sold to a captain, who we'll call...Captain. Hero and Phelia are really stupid. Think rocks...but dumber. OH-and then there's two servants to Diana and Andrew-we'll call them Philip and Hysterium. Hysterium, true to his name, spends the majority of the show running around screaming like a little girl. Philip is trying to make it so Hero and Phelia can marry. In the meantime, things get very confused, and Diana ends up with a houseful of courtesans, the Old Guy returns to find his home "haunted" and to do a "We Will Rock You" revival, and Hysterium ends up wearing a dress.

It's great fun.

And that's not mentioning the skipping eunuchs.

Anyhoo, that's only part of what I did, but I'm tired of typing...so....I'm going to go play James Bond now.

Saw Jane Eyre today. Good movie, but kinda creepy. Classic dude-with-a-secret-but-I-love-him-anyway-deal.

Whatever.

Quote for today: "I don't cause commotions, I am one!"

Elphie

January 8, 2005

2006-01-08T10:20:00.000-08:00

Ok, I can't stay long, I have a ton of HW to do, but:

ITS-International Thespian Society: a bunch of theatre kids hang out, watch shows, and generally act like the crazy people we are.

West Virginia: Keep praying. The miscommunication that happened is making tempers run high and the grief for those families must be so, so hard.

Thank you, both of you who read and comment on my blog. You guys are awesome!!!

Quote for today: "Then as I end the refrain-thrust home!" (Cyrano de Bergerac)

Elphie

January 4, 2005

2006-01-04T19:39:00.000-08:00

Ok, I must apologize. For the two of you who DO read this blog, I'm going on a trip over the weekend with the theatre troupe, and I won't be back until Sunday, with no access to a computer. So-I promise to come back and update you on everything that has happened...and thank you for listening, it means a lot...

But...regarding today, I went back to school. My teachers are very entertaining, especially my Sociology teacher, who commented that: "If you do not ace this class, you are either a really lazy person...or you're a moron."

Applause for a teacher who won an entire classroom's respect-by memorizing their names in thirty seconds.

And for the gentlemen that are still in the world....Galinda's anonymous guy at lunch, the anonymous commenter I have the pleasure of talking to, and a kid in my youth group, C.P., too young for a girl like me, but a gentleman nonetheless.
Thank you, thank you guys, for remembering that you are princes and try to act like one. It'll pay off...I promise.

And to Galinda:
Girl, Sis...you make my life sparkle. You make me laugh, and smile, and want to leap for joy just from being around you. You are that crazy glitter that lights up your eyes. You are so nice to me...and fun...and....just...freaking...amazing. I love you.

Yes, really.

REALLY.

:)

Be back as soon as I can.

NOTE: If any of you have been following the story about those miners trapped in (West?) Virginia, please, please pray for their families. I don't know if you heard, but there were 13 men, and the initial report was that 12 survived. In truth, only one man survived, and many people are suffering right now. Having lost a brother 5 months ago, I can only begin to grasp the pain of losing a father, a husband, a friend...please pray for these families, and for the man who survived-that he will pull through at the hospital.

Elphie

Quote for today: Mr. Darcy: "May I have the next dance, Miss Elizabeth?"
Elizabeth Bennett: "You may." (freezes in realization of what she's just done)

January 3, 2005

2006-01-03T12:18:00.000-08:00

Today was fantastic. I went shopping with my mom-just some errands, nothing big. (I have no money anyway, lol) But it was fun-we talked, and my mom was just happy I went with her. And you know what? It was more fun than playing video games or zoning out watching TV.

Family time is good. Lord, thank you for my parents.

(Btw, to the anonymous person who left a comment, I responded to it on the same post)

Quote for today: Mr. Bennet: "Your mother will never see you again if you do not marry Mr. Collins... And I will never see you again if you do."

Elphie

January 1, 2005

2006-01-01T17:19:00.000-08:00

Mwhahahaha.

I saw Pride and Prejudice...again. Which makes....3 freakin' times!!!

Aaaaaannnnd....I'm still in love with Mr. Darcy. I mean...ok. When I meet a guy, I want him to be as much like Darcy as possible. Not all old-fashioned dresser, or with sideburns-or necessarily with blue eyes. BUT-I want him to be intense-like when he looks at me, when I talk, I want him to LOOK at me, I want to know how much I interest him. I want him to protect me. I want him to respect me. I want him to be a leader, a gentleman-and I REALLY mean that one. A gentleman. I want him to pick me up in his car. Walk to the door, don't you dare honk at me from the street. Open the door for me at the restaurant. If you want, pull out my chair-you don't have to, but I'd be surprised. If I look cold, offer me your coat. I'll refuse you twice. I don't want to be dependent on anyone-you'll learn that fast. But ask me a third time and I'll say yes. You'll figure out pretty fast that I would rather shiver than depend on anyone. But if you're polite, if you insist-I'll fall in love with you for it. And don't expect to pay all the time. Pay the first time-it's traditional, but after that, I'm glad to share, or pay the whole thing, half and half. By the way-hold the door on our way out too....I'm a sucker for a real gentleman. Oh, and please, please, please- walk me to the door at the end of the "date," even if we're just hanging out. And if it is a date-please don't try to kiss me. I don't know your feelings, and I certainly don't know mine all the time. If I want a kiss, I'll bite my lip. I'll falter when I talk-I never do that. But be the gentleman. Respect my boundaries. I've got high standards-very high. I'm not even sure about kissing and dating in general. I think I'll probably do the dating thing-but kissing is so intimate-and that's all I plan to do-that's it, so don't push me. And by the way-if you aren't a Christian, I'm sorry, but I can't do that. And that includes big talkers. Walk the walk. Show me with your actions who your leader is, who your "god" is. Believe me-the most attractive thing about a guy-more so than being a gentleman-which is no. 2 on my list, is a guy who is honestly and completely on fire for God. Love Him more than me-it's ok. Put me off for church-don't obsess about hanging with your friends either-I'm ok if you're not spending every single minute with me. But anyway, there's my little spiel.

But so you know, Mr. Darcy-in-the-making....I'm praying for you, every day. And I will wait for you.

(and by the way....this is TOTALLY not required....but I'm a sucker for a good voice and British accents...)

Quote for today: (I know I've used this before...but anyway...)
"And what shall I call you when I am cross? Mrs. Darcy?"
"No! You may only call me that when you are completely, and perfectly, and incandescently happy..."
:)

MR. DARCY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-20T16:25:00.000-08:00

hehe....I found more pictures...

December 20, 2005

2005-12-20T14:21:00.000-08:00

I SAW PRIDE AND PREJUDICE!!!!

I'M IN LOVE WITH MR. DARCY!!!!

HERE'S HIS PICTURE!!

THIS IS THE KIND OF MAN I WANT TO MARRY!!!!

(we are going to see this movie again!!!!)(...and AGAIN...and AGAIN...and AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

AAAH! I'm in love with ANOTHER fictional character!!!!

Elphie

Quote(s) for today:

Mr. Darcy: You must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love... I love... I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.

Mr. Darcy: ...And what am I to call you when I'm cross, Mrs. Darcy?
Elizabeth Bennet: No, you may only call me Mrs. Darcy when you are completely and perfectly and incandesantly happy.
Mr. Darcy: And how are you this evening, Mrs. Darcy? [kisses Elizabeth's forehead]
Mr. Darcy: ...Mrs. Darcy... [kisses her cheek]
Mr. Darcy: ...Mrs. Darcy... [kisses her nose]
Mr. Darcy: ...Mrs. Darcy... [kisses her other cheek]
Mr. Darcy: ...Mrs... [his voice, a whisper, fades out, and he draws Elizabeth closer to him as she leans in and he kisses her]

December 18, 2005

2005-12-18T19:40:00.000-08:00

Eeew....I've been horribly, disgustingly sick. Galinda came over this afternoon, sweetheart that she is, and gave me a present-AND stayed to watch me open it!!! Poor thing, she burned her fingers making it...get a band-aid for that, sweets, before you get an infection...or something... Anyhoo, I worked on math for awhile, and now I feel like crap again-yay! NOT! And so now I'm taking a break before going back to work...

*yawn*

Galinda...I have this really weird vibe that something isn't right with you...maybe it's just me being sick...are you okay?

*concerned*

Elphie

December 17, 2005

2005-12-17T09:30:00.000-08:00

Wait for it....wait for it....

I have MUSIC now!

Sooo....

wait for it....

December 17, 2005

2005-12-17T09:06:00.000-08:00

http://elflady.com/legolasgreenleaf/multimedia/potc2_trailer1.wmv

AAAAAAH!

*gasps*

...

AAAH!

Quote for today: "I can do anything I want! I'm the Wicked Witch of the West!"

December 13, 2005

2005-12-13T20:28:00.000-08:00

GALINDA!!!!

I have an apology to make. One for being a witch, which I already apologized for...but I still feel bad for snapping at you. And two-I feel bad about not going to your band concert. Until six-thirty, I was positive we had Tuesday night class. Then I found out it was canceled...not cool... Then, my mom wanted to take me to Narnia tonight, as a mother-daughter thing, and she wanted to wait till dad called to find out if he cared about us going without him. Dad calls at seven, and asks us not to go to Narnia until he comes back from his business trip. By the time this conversation between mum and dad is over, it is now 7:45. By 7:50, Mom has finished explaining why we can't go see Narnia. By 8:00, Elphaba realizes that making it to Galinda's concert isn't going to happen. And so...I apologize. If I had known I was going to be stuck at home, doing nothing when I could be supporting you at your concert....babe, I swear I would've been there. I only hope I can make it up to you somehow. You have done so much for me and I missed something that's important to you. I just want you to know that I wouldn't deliberately skip something like that, and I know this may sound like an ultra-feeble excuse, but it's the truth, and I can't give any more than that. I'm glad we're not fighting...and thank goodness you're my friend. I'm gonna miss you during finals week...no meeting in the hallways!!!!!!!!

Btw, I DO want to see that video of your band competition. Me and FG need to have a "watch Galinda perform her SOLO in the MAJOR PERFORMANCE" night. I meant what I said about wanting to see that.

FG, my dear, if you read this...ever...the stuff I said previously about Dorothy and Elphaba never being friends-sweets, those characters are FICTIONAL. Although I have some Elphaba-ish tendencies, I couldn't POSSIBLY dislike you because you played Dorothy in a PLAY. If anything, I know the difference between acting and reality, and I am more keenly aware of it than most people. I WANTED to be Dorothy more than anything....until Wicked...but you love her sweetness, and goodness, and no one could've been a more perfect Dorothy than you. However, just because I've joined the ever-growing "Wicked," and for that matter, "Witch" fan club, does NOT, under ANY circumstances, mean that I like you any less. If that were true, I'd have to hate Judy Garland....and honestly....I love her voice, truly do. I love you, FG, you're a great friend. Don't ever think that my obsession with Wicked would make you any less of my friend. Honestly-how could I dislike someone with such an amazing taste in footwear? Really....the sparkles....got to love them! (Love you, FG)

Galinda....
We;re insane. I can't wait to scare the CRAP outta the people at Abilene. The INSANITY!!!! I'm bringing a camera....
...and we're gonna have to run down the halls screaming...
...TOGETHER...
....and can we sing "What is this Feeling?" really loud....in our dorm....at 2 am...just once?

...please?

:)

*Elphie

Quote for today: "Ball gown!" *nothing* "Ball gown!" *nothing*
"Is this thing on?" *beats wand on hip*
"Do you want me to try?" *barely suppressed laughter*
"No!" *tosses wand* "Just wear the frock-it's pretty!!"
*impromptu random "Galinda" dance which involves singing, badly timed leaps, and some extreme hair-tossing.*

WICKED INSANITY!!!

(ok...i'm really done now...i promise...look, i didn't capitalize my i's....my grammar is shot...ok, really....goodbye...go sleep....or eat....or count sheep....i don't care...but my eyes are closing.......zzzzzzz.....)

December 11, 2005

2005-12-11T12:47:00.000-08:00

Well...I'm going to do some begging here...but ANYWAY...

Look what I've heard about and found online!!!!

The Oprah Winfrey Show
WILDEST DREAMc/o Team AWPO Box 917940
Chicago, IL 60661

MY Wildest Dream? To be Elphaba...anywhere....just as long as I'm in Wicked.

That's it. Shameless begging over.

Elphie

Quote for today: "Some things I cannot change...but till I try, I'll never know!!!"

December 5, 2005

2005-12-05T20:18:00.000-08:00

And...I'm back. Well, I hung out with Galinda again, she's my best friend ever, amazing to hang out with. She is definitely the coolest person EVER. We had some really intimate conversations that meant a lot to me, in a lot of ways. We can talk about ANYTHING. It's cool. She and I stay up late into the night talking...and teasing each other about stupid stuff. In fact, we had a really funny convo tonight...but anyway, I think I'll go to bed early tonight...since, I have the ACT on Saturday.

Quote for today: "Two words: Philosophy Club."

Lol.

Elphie

November 29, 2005

2005-11-29T20:51:00.000-08:00

Let me tell you a story:

Once, there was a girl who was born alone. She was never meant to be, but she became an outcast, except she didn't know it. This girl grew older as time went on, and she slowly began to see a world in which she didn't quite fit. Somehow she always fell short, and she hid behind shyness and a pair of glasses that were just a little too big. And one day, that girl stepped into high school, and she discovered that the world was not as innocent as she had once believed.

Now the girl was happy, or so she thought, but those around her began to reveal pain and suffering hidden beneath their joy. The girl met a friend in those early years, or so she thought...but she didn't know how to help, and eventually, the friend slipped away, and the girl was alone. The girl never made friends, in fact, she rarely contacted anyone outside her family and other outcasts like herself. Her "friends" were misfits, and she the greatest one of all.

Until one day.

Once, there was a girl. This girl has a smile that lights up a room when she enters it, and that smile remains even after she leaves. The girl has a joy that radiates from her like a star-a light that is beautiful and elegant, sweet and silvery, delicate and kind. This girl is sure of herself, and has a beauty to match her inner radiance. This girl has a heart that is open to all, and a mind full of wisdom that her peers cannot comprehend. This girl knows her true friends and has learned the lost art of love and listening, and knows how often the two go hand in hand. This girl knows how to trust and be trustworthy, and she holds her head with a confidence that makes even the proud turn to stare in envy.

One day, the two girls met. One met with sadness, the other with helplessness and a desire to comfort. One was shy, the other, outgoing. One had a shell, a wall she never believed anyone could break-the other helped pull down her defenses. One believed she could never trust again; the other taught her to open her heart and risk one more attempt at friendship. One sought out her first real companion; the other allowed her the love she could never allow herself.

Do you know this girl? The term "girl" is unfair-it is a woman of confidence that I describe, a woman who holds her own with a strength that makes others pale in comparison. This is no mere "girl," she bears a remarkable spirit no one can take away, and independence that draws those around her like a moth to a flame.

Do you know this girl?

I do.

Quote for today: "You're the only friend I've ever had."
"And I've had so many friends, but only one that mattered."

November 24, 2005

2005-11-24T08:45:00.000-08:00

Yeah....it's Thanksgiving. What am I thankful for?

KC!!!! Of course.

I'm also thankful for Galadriel, Mrs. H, and my family. But....I'm really, really thankful for Galinda. Love you, babe. OH! and I'm REALLY thankful for WICKED....duh....

Countdown: 3 DAYS!!!!

Quote for today: "Just two good friends...two BEST friends..." (and this is where, in the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, that Kristin Chenoweth inadverdently revealed that all of the cast of Wicked was lip-synching...)

November 21, 2005

2005-11-21T14:36:00.000-08:00

The sorting hat says that I belong in Ravenclaw!

Said Ravenclaw, "We'll teach those whose intelligence is surest."

Ravenclaw students tend to be clever, witty, intelligent, and knowledgeable.
Notable residents include Cho Chang and Padma Patil (objects of Harry and Ron's affections), and Luna Lovegood (daughter of The Quibbler magazine's editor).

Take the most scientific Harry Potter Quiz ever created.

Get Sorted Now!

Aaaand: 6 DAYS!!!!

November 20, 2005

2005-11-20T15:33:00.000-08:00

Aida is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!! 24 freaking songs in one show is waaaaay too many, if you ask me....but no one did....so I'll tell you anyway. Mwhahaha. Midsummer Night's Dream auditions are on December 1st, which is kind of freaky, because we have to have a 30 second Shakespearean monologue memorized. You can't really ad-lib that...I mean....

Me: Oh happy dagger...(crap, forgot line...) Oh...ye beautiful blade of steely...ness...plungeth into...my-MINE...heart...and die.

RIIIIIGHT. Yeah, somehow that wouldn't work....

Galinda.......wow. This week has been tough. I'm think I'm cursed to hurt people, I really do. I'm completely Elphaba. I hurt my friends and my enemies succeed. Eh well, if you ever hear that I've found a large trophy, go protect Madame Morrible...she may be in grave danger....

Anyhoo....I'm tired. Strike was exhausting....so I'll leave it at that. If you need me, just call. I'm always here...but you know that.

Love always!!!

Elphie

Quote for today: "I...I have to go."

November 17, 2005

2005-11-17T17:26:00.000-08:00

So...I shouldn't read blogs I frankly care nothing about...however, I enjoy reading stuff that may or may not be directed at me...and people think I don't even read it...lol...

Anyhoo... boys ARE stupid, and rocks should be thrown at them-ONE in particular. To you, sir, and you know who you are: If you want a royal chewing-out in front of EVERYONE-I dare you to say one thing about her. Just one. I will hurt you...don't test me on this one.

OMG I can't believe he dissed your face, Galinda. I was seriously infuriated when I read your TM. Ok...breathing...1...2...

Whoohoo for always being too involved, but I'll do that till I die. It's what I do...especially with you...my dearest friend in the entire world. Sorry if I freaked you out yesterday. I KNOW I freaked HLynne out. Anyway...Galinda, I wanted to say something:

I'm sorry you think I have a leash on you. I'm sorry to be the one to put stress on your life. And I'm sorry that you can't go a day without me making a blunt comment...you know what I mean. I love you so much, and I wish I could go a day without hurting you-and don't tell me that never happens, because I know it has to sometimes. I wish I could be your friend without electing myself the savior of the world. I wish I could be the friend who listens rather than tries to fix things. I care about you so much that I will do anything to make you happy, even when sometimes I wonder if it is me or you I'm trying to make happy. Know that I never wanted you to change things for me. Change things because your heart is truly changed, and I think that's what you're trying to do...because you haven't changed things yet, and I think that's because you want to do it for the right reasons. I respect that, really, I do. I respect you, whether or not you believe that. That's why I hate to hear you call yourself the names others place on you, because they are false and you know it. Don't let the fear that they may become true destroy your love for yourself. They only have the chance to become true if YOU believe them. I don't. I never will. You are a Princess...and I can see that-I want you to see that. I want you to see yourself the way I do. You are a jewel of a person, shining like a star in the darkest of nights. There is a glow within you that draws people to you. People see you as different from themselves, and I think that is why people like R. anatagonize you. I think that is why they call you names-because you know how to escape when they have blinded themselves. They want what you have-you are a CHRISTIAN. Never forget that, do not underestimate it, and remember its significance. You are the dearest friend I've ever had. And do not think this is meant to galvanize you action, to push you down this path I push you down even when I say I won't. I want you to love you as much as I do...I hope this message will explain that. Perhaps in that I will succeed. I love you, Galinda. Raise that head of yours and go on walking. You deserve the more than you allow yourself. You deserve more than you call yourself. To me, you are a star, a brilliant light that shines the brighter when I am with you, because you are beautiful. I love you, I will always love you, and I will never leave you.

Love you...
Elphie

Quote for today: "Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But...because I knew you...I have been changed...for good..."

November 12, 2005

2005-11-12T21:29:00.000-08:00

Yeah... so, I have to tell you about the AMAZING thing Galinda did for me tonight...

I came out to my car after the show, and I got in, talking to my mom, right? So, I'm about to start the car, and there is this ROSE under the windshield wiper. Now, it had been raining, but Galinda had left a card out there for me, in the rain, and she has bronchitis, but she DID that! For me!!! It's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me, ever!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, GALINDA!!!

(and by the way, I didn't hang up on you. My phone died. I waited on AIM for a half-hour, but I guess you went to bed or watched WICKED. I love you so so so so so MUCH!!! Thanks for being the greatest friend I could ever hope for. You're more than I ever imagined. God knew what He was doing when He put us together...but then again, He always knows what He's doing.)

I love you sis. You are the dearest person to my heart. I adore you.

Thanks for being my friend. For being there. For listening.

Elphie

November 12, 2005

2005-11-12T13:23:00.000-08:00

Sooooo...we've started the show...and I love it.

Aida is amazing. I mean, the girl playing Aida is amazing. She has an awesome voice. So do Amneris, Radames, Zoser, and Mereb-though not neccessarily in that order. Also, this girl named Randi is amazing too. Wow...someone's real name...dun dun dun...anyhoo, the show's awesome. Amneris pulled off a great cover on opening night-she was going down the stairs from our eight-foot platforms, and her robe got caught on the top step. Now, her blocking requires her to go down the stairs and downstage stage right. But instead, she not only realized her robe was caught, but she invented all new blocking right there on the spot, since she was literally immobilized. We were SO proud of her. The only other mishap was that Zoser and Mereb have a fight where Mereb gets "killed," and Mereb's staff broke in two when Zoser hit it...which...was awesome-looking. And...so...yeah. The show's going great. I have another show tonight. I talked to Galinda yesterday and the day before, and I have to say it again-SHE IS SO AWESOME AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!!!!

I love you Galinda.

(and how'd you like my Quadling-ish text message today?)
Lol.

Sooooooooooooooo....I'm done.

Talk to you all later.
Mrs. H!!!! Post something for me!!!
Galadriel-how's the book coming? I'm excited to read some of it!!!
Galinda...I love you...you're amazing...and...15 days till Wicked!!!

WICKED COUNTDOWN: 15 days
Quote for today: "Stop crying for your stupid Aunt Em and what's-his-name. You would think you were raised in a barn!"

November 4, 2005

2005-11-04T20:16:00.000-08:00

Soooooo....I'm back again.

Mrs. H. knows where my blog is now, so I hope she posts a comment soon.

Anyhoo, I stopped by wickedthemusical.com to check out the Wicked Week results and was really excited to see that Lyle won the online contest. I personally was THRILLED with his voice, so I'm glad he got that honor.

*sigh...* If only my parents had taken me to Chicago or New York!!!!

Aida is going a lot better, for those of you who care to know. We have the boat mostly built now, the cage is built, the platforms are built, and fiberoptic backdrop came in yesterday. It looks fantastic, and the lights flicker independently of each other like stars. (Sorry, Galinda-come see it....it'll probably make your ADD go bonkers trying to focus on everything at once, lol)

Speaking of Galinda-she had Senior Night tonight at the football game!!! Tons of good luck wishes for your performance!!!! Love you, my pretty, and your obsession with pink, too!!!

Sooooooooooooo....hmm. What to write. Ooooh....I know something that'll make you mad, Galinda. Not really, it's the funny kind of mad.

Ok, to explain for those who don't know Aida, there is a scene at the beginning of the show where Aida and her Nubian "ladies-in-waiting" so to speak, are all at the Nile's edge near Egyptian territory. Radames, the Captain of the Egyptian Royal Guard, comes in and captures all of them. Except he has his army with him so all the women get captured. Anyway, to make a long story shorter, all of us puny little girls get to fight the big, testosterone-laden guys. For some odd reason, they really got into it today.

So, Galinda, to conclude, I have a fatty bruise on my arm where my "guard" beat the crap outta me. Lol...I'm not the only one...

(please don't kill him.)

Whew. I just watched the Bourne Supremacy. Now THERE'S a confusing movie...especially when you fall asleep through half of it and then try to make sense of the rest. Oh well...

SO.

Good luck, Galinda!!! I miss you!!! LYLAS always and forever...and For Good.

Galadriel, I miss you SOOOOOOOO much!!!! Are you writing anything new?!??!

Mrs. H: Have you figured out how to comment yet? (AND FINISH WICKED!!!!) ...(lol)

Love always!!!!

Elphie

Quote for today: "I think it scratched you..."
"Yeah...or maybe it scratched me...or something..."

October 30, 2005

2005-10-30T14:40:00.000-08:00

SO...

I forget to update SO much!!!! I'm SORRY!!!!

Anyway. I can't go to Trunk or Treat tonight because I have to work. Why? Becasue if I want to actually ENJOY Halloween, I get to work today. I worked eight hours yesterday and I'm going to work six today. EEEEEEW!

But...yeah, life is fine and dandy. Hurrah for prayers!!! I prayed most of the time yesterday for Galinda-she had a big band competition and a solo, and she was having issues with breathing and vocals-BUT!!! She told me today she played her solo and everything!!!! YAY!!!

OH! I also found out how much this scholarship I got is actually worth-$2,000 a YEAR!!! I must be a semi-good actor, if they are willing to offer that much! WOW!

My parents are also offering to take me back to England this summer. I'd miss the Spotlight Community Theatre Production-but WHO CARES!!!! I'd be back in London! YAY!!!! Out of the US!!!!

Whew! Lots of exclamation points and Caps Lock. Lol. Anyhoo, I guess I'll be going-have to clean out my car-but whatever. Galinda, I am SO NOT mad at you, or disappointed, or any of that crap-so don't worry about it....I wish you'd check your cell once in a while, though...

WICKED IS IN 28 DAYS!!!! 28 DAYS UNTIL I GET TO SEE ELPHABA...WITH GALINDA...AGAIN!!!!

Well, not quite again-cause I'll be seeing it with Galinda for the first time...well, live, that is...except I'll be seeing it again...for the second time...live...but not for the second time with Stephanie...cause I saw Shoshana the first time...live...

WHATEVER.

Quote for today: "I'm a public figure now...people expect me to-"
"LIE?!"
"Be ENCOURAGING!!!"

October 26, 2005

2005-10-26T16:20:00.000-07:00

I am a cynical, cynical person...possibly evil....I'm not sure....
It's odd not to know who or what you are. What your motives are, why you say things, what is right and where "wrong" begins. Why we have emotions, why I have so many. Why I can't be sane, why I can't accept things. Why I dislike people for no reason, why I cannot hide that. Why I am who I am, and why I don't know who I'm meant to be.

Is every good deed I attempt to do meant to cause pain? Are they good deeds, or are they twisted in my head? Why is it that every friend (before you, Galinda) I have tried to help has been hurt because of it? Every good thing I ever tried to do has done nothing but hurt those around me. I couldn't save A.E. and I couldn't save him...

And I discovered that I'm a b****. I'm sarcastic, often cruel, cynical, bitter, insecure, selfish, limited, and incapable of allowing anyone to help me. And it seems I've lost faith in men in general. Ford-truck boy likes me, I think, and I can't help but despise him for it, because he is as dense as the rest of his pathetic gender.

Feminist to the core, what can I say. Bitter? Oh yes, undoubtedly.

...don't freak out, Galinda. Just catching my (3) readers up on yesterday's crap.

Quote for today: "Was I really seeking good? Or just seeking attention?"

October 20, 2005

2005-10-20T17:48:00.000-07:00

This is something a friend did, and it looked funny. Type in yor name and put down the first ten responses from Google-here they are:

1) Elphie needs 34 tablets of phenobarbitone a day along with potassium bromide...
2) Elphie needs a tough girl image, rather than a pretty girl one...
3) Elphie needs to diversify in order to gain legitimacy.
4) Elphie needs to know more about the exact speakers she's using... (huh?)

And that was it!!!! There aren't any more! How odd is that?!?!

Anyhoo-I'm excited. Galinda's letting me come over on Friday, and we had a good day today. I LOVE her-she is my BEST friend ever.

But-WICKED'S really soon!!!!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSS!

Quote for today: "No, I'm not seasick, yes, I was born this way, and no-I did not eat grass as a child. Oh-and this is my sister, Nessarose. As you can see, SHE'S perfectly normal..."

October 17, 2005

2005-10-17T18:59:00.000-07:00

SO: I am going to tell you about my fantasmagorical friend, Galinda.

Galinda is one the funniest, most talented and intelligent people I know. She is, essentially, my best friend, we call each other Elphie and Galinda all the time-especially in public...because it's funny...

We're both freakishly obsessed with Wicked, and we're going as the Shiz Elphaba and Galinda for Halloween...because we aren't allowed to go as the Good Witch of the North or the Wicked Witch of the West...but ANYWAY.

Galinda-you make me smile. You make my day brighter. You make me laugh. You make me happy. You make me feel like...like for once, I actually belong somewhere. I'm more like Elphaba than you will ever know-more than I'll ever confess...(great, now you'll be curious...) You've reestablished my faith in dreams...and in myself.

Thank you for being my best friend I've ever had. I love you.

Elphie

Quote for today: "Two good friends...Two BEST friends..."

Ocotber 14, 2005

2005-10-14T19:10:00.000-07:00

Well, today was pleasantly uneventful. I hung out with Galinda, we listened to Wicked music for awhile, and then I went home and watched Wicked on my computer. I love watching Idina, she's so good it just makes me ache with the desire to be on the stage, playing that part. I CAN act, I CAN! Won't someone PLEASE notice me?!?!?!

Sigh...Can't wait till Halloween, I'll be green and beautiful. Perhaps then someone will see me...

They personally are of the O-pinion that I don't "have what it takes." I hope they prove my idea that they are favoritists wrong. I doubt they will.

Quote for today: "Well, the beautiful only seem to get more beautiful, while the green only get greener..."

October 8, 2005

2005-10-08T08:39:00.000-07:00

Well, I made all District Choir, yay!

This is gonna be short-I have to leave soon, but I'm really excited. I got ALL my makeup for Halloween, and our dresses for Chamber Choir finally came. They're GORGEOUS. Midnight blue with a faux diamond-and-pearl brooch. I love it. And my mother is finishing up my Elphaba dress.

I couldn't be happier...

Quote for today: "Just wait a clock tick! I know it may be difficult for that blissful, blonde brain of yours to comprehend that someone like him could actually choose someone like me. But it's happened. It's real. And you can wave that ridiculous wand all you want, but you can't change it! He doesn't belong to you, he never loved you, and he never will! He loves ME!"

October 1, 2005

2005-10-01T14:51:00.000-07:00

Back again! I had another audition today-this time for the All District Choir in my state. I think I did ok, which is nice...whoo hoo.

Stuff going on with me...hmmm...

Well, there this girl, who I'll call B.E. She didn't make the chamber choir at my school this year, and she's really jealous about it. Anyway, the thing is, she's one of those loud, obnoxious types who can't sing very well, so it's no wonder she didn't get in. BUT-she's in one of my classes, so I'm trying to be nice to her. So we're in this class, and she says to me:

"One of the girls in your choir says that chamber really sucks this year."

ME: "Who told you that?"

"I'm not gonna SAY!"

"ME: "Well, there's one song we're having issues with, but I wouldn't say we suck..."

HER: "Yeah, well, I heard you at the football game, and you all sounded...bad..."

Jealous? Yeah. I asked around in our choir, and NO ONE said that. So later, we'd all gotten hoodies for our choir, and B.E. comes up to one of the altos and goes:

"You know what? Those are really ugly. I don't like those."

So anyway. Disgusting. Get OVER the jealousy or handle yourself with grace. If I could do it last year, anyone can do it. It's immature in a senior.

Anyway, I have work to do. *Climbs onto broomstick* If you need me, I'm somewhere above Oz...

(and if you want a clue, I'm doing something with smoke...an aerial message, so to speak...stupid farmgirls...those shoes weren't hers in the first place...I mean...REALLY!)

Quote of the day: "Unbecoming. The perfect word for my new life. I who have always been unbecoming am becoming un."

September 23, 2005

2005-09-23T17:28:00.000-07:00

SO! I'm really slow about writing.

Today I am in Oklahoma at a University. I had a theatre scholarship audition, and I feel I did really well. Tomorrow I have a music/vocal audition, and I'm singing "When I Have Sung My Songs" and "Wizard and I." I'm really excited, because my voice teacher told me that I sound like a carbon copy of Idina Menzel...even though she didn't mean it as a compliment.

Anyway, really happy. Sorry I took so long about posting again. I'm hyper though. I'm going to see Wicked again, so yay. I have awesome seats-close enough to see the actors' faces, but far enough away that the special effects still look like "magic."

Hurray.

Ah Tum Ah Tay Ah May Ah Tum Tah Tay...

(go look it up, my pretties...or if you get it, go check your broomstick, and make sure it's anchored to the floor.)

Quote for today: "It's not her-I'm the one you want! It's me! It's ME! It's MEEEEEEE!"

September 10, 2005

2005-09-10T21:13:00.000-07:00

Job was awful today. My one of two friends quit, so I'm left alone with a bunch of teen girls who are apparently too cool to speak to me. I spent 7 1/2 hours on the verge of tears while listening to sad oldies like "Silver Thunderbird." I'd quit if I didn't need the money...

:(

September 4, 2005

2005-09-04T12:11:00.000-07:00

And....I'm back!

Hello to everyone who may or may not be listening-since I NEVER get comments... grr... Anyhoo, did I tell you I got the job at Walgreens? I'm very excited about that-being a cosmetician is a nice job. I'm inside, there's a good AC system, and I get to watch Britney Spears' video for her new perfume, "Curious" fifty bazillion times a day.

Ok...maybe that last part isn't so great...lol. I enjoy my job though, really- I do. By the way, Maybelline (I think) has this new foundation and blush stuff called "Dream Matte Mousse." It is every bit as smooth and creamy as it looks, but a little bit goes a long way-making it feel a gentle as a powder, not heavy at all.

Aida practices are ok. I wish I had a better part, but I'm not in control, so I might as well do the best I can right now, with what I have. I was a bit depressed though-apparently Chicago had auditions for WICKED August 30-31, and because I'm not old enough, I couldn't go. Very frustrating, because I am a belter, so I think I'd at least have a chance there...

But yeah...not much else going on around here. I think I might go see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory again. Had to do with this bizarre dream I had....met Johnny and he looked like Wonka, and at first I was freaked out. (who wouldn't be?) But then he turned into Cpt. Jack, and I got to be in Pirates 2. So now, for some inexplicable reason, I think he's hot as Wonka too...weird...

All right, I'm done now. Going to go see a movie I think-Brother's Grimm. Yay. Heard it's rather gory....oh well...

August 28, 2005

2005-08-28T12:18:00.000-07:00

Once again, I have waited way too long before posting. Well-I made Aida, whoohoo...but I'm not entirely thrilled. I have a chorus role, an Egyptian/Nubian woman with ONE line. I am what one would call in the "higher caste" of the chorus, so that is all right, but the one of the lead roles is VERY weak, in my opinion. That person did not even read their lines well, and although all of the leads have fantastic voices, this person's acting skills are zilch.

Someone explain to me how they got the part?

Oh wait-I already know-blatant FAVORITISM!!!!

Anyway, I'll enjoy my role. Besides, I'm really good at making myself stand out in chorus roles. Believe me, I'll do my best to absolutely shine in this show too.

August 22, 2005

2005-08-22T20:29:00.000-07:00

Omg, had my audition today, and I was furious. I went in there, did my monologue, got stopped halfway through, but that was okay. There were eight people judging the audition, and the choreographer leaned over to my drama teacher and says in a stage whisper (like I can't hear her) "That was really powerful." Made me feel good, anyway. After that, I sang a few bars from "Wizard and I" from Wicked the musical. If you haven't heard of Wicked, go see it. It's amazing. Really. That went really well, hit all my high notes, particularly "...half of Oz's favorite te-ee-am..." which is high. Then, we had to sing a song from the actual musical-Aida, if you forgot-and so I had "Strongest Suit" prepared. I belted it out like no other and they let me go for awhile before I was stopped. My friend is the pianist, and she told me I'd sung more than anyone else today, and auditions had already been running for about four hours by that point. So, all in all, a good auditions.

But, oh! Smash all hopes and dreams! No callback. All callbacks are while you're onstage for this director, and I didn't get one. I personally think I'm pretty talented, but this really annoys me. But then again, welcome to the real world, and all its stupid politics.

I just wish some new people would get the roles. For once.

-_-

Comments

2005-08-20T09:19:00.000-07:00

One last thing:

Please leave comments for me if you are reading my blog. It would be really, really nice to know that people are actually listening. Otherwise, I feel like I'm talking to empty space.

Thanks!

August 20, 2005

2005-08-20T09:09:00.000-07:00

Oh, wow. It has been WAY too long since I've updated. Well, I've been at school mostly-whoo hoo, welcome to my world-and it's okay. Here are my classes-NOT in order, thank you.

Senior Composition: My teacher is very "tree in the wind" emotionally. I think she wrote all her essays the incorrect way in high school and is now trying to get us to write her way as some zany sort of self-justification. I was in AP Lit last year-I know how to write a good essay-this isn't it.

Algebra III: My teacher is hilarious, and is "paying" us to do our homework. A.k.a., we make "math money" which we can use to get out of a quiz or add 5 points to our grades. Very helpful, very dull speaker.

Chamber Choir: WHOOT! I'm in an elite choir after three years! I totally deserved to get in last year, but no one ever said the Fine Arts played fair. Anyway, the class is amazing, and I'm happy singing.

Ecology: Boring. The teacher is bizarre. He's made us sit three different ways each day in class depending on our last names. Although this was a nice attempt to get us to actually speak to each other, we'd really rather remain cliquish and pretend that others don't exist. We did get to colour in class though...

Contemporary Issues: Fascinating. The teacher is funny, and I'm learning more about the world around me than I ever had. Actually, I almost never have time to watch the news, so this class is very interesting for me-I actually enjoy it.

Geoscience: Rocks. Minerals. Shoot me. The teacher is ok.

That's pretty much it. I left a long message. Yay. Anyhoo, I have to find a DRAMATIC monlogue for my Aida audition, so off I go. I am really excited, though, because I may have the best voice out of all the people I know auditioning. (and that's a lot) (My acting skills need some polishing, though...lol)

August 16, 2005

2005-08-16T17:04:00.000-07:00

Whoo-hoo! Big step towards independence!

Today-yes, I know it's ridiculous-I went to an interview for my first job ever. It's very exciting for me, mainly because I want to take my mother to Wicked for her birthday. It falls right on when Wicked would be in our hometown. Anyway, I went to Walgreens, had an interview, freaked out because I was afraid I'd say something stupid, didn't say anything even remotely stupid, and was offered the cosmotology position for $7.50 an hour. I was soooo excited.

School starts tomorrow. Ick.

Saw Mrs. H. today. Had fun. Ate at the California Pizza Kitchen. Saw some adorable clothes. All in all, pretty good day, except I found out I have a sinus infection...eew...

Oh well. Life goes on, and I'm still here to enjoy it. Whee.

August 15, 2005

2005-08-15T14:28:00.000-07:00

Two days before the first day of school, two days before the last year of high school begins. Two days before I find out how auditions are going to run for Aida, our musical this fall. Two days before the date that marks two weeks from my little brother's death.

Two days before the rest of my life.

Watch out, world. Another child of the dramatic arts is headed your way, ready and willing to work for as long as it takes to be noticed. This is my story. My life, my days, my trials, my auditions, my hopes, my fears-like every other blog, like every other story. And yet, think back to your grandparents, their parents. How much do you know about them, how much do you recall about their lives? Who will you be to those who follow?

I refuse to be forgotten.